I've had quite a mind pondering month. It's hard to believe that it is February. My lack of seriousness for the goal of August 20th as a wedding date never really materialized itself as manifested in my not doing anything to move toward that goal...it was fun to talk about though :). I sit hear right now listening to my Brazilian roommates ramble on and on with their Brazilian friend. I understand what they are talking about everytime they say an English word that they don't have a Brazilian word for...but mostly they could be making fun of me and I would have no idea...except for the fact that I think we're friends, I've been playing with them a lot latey, so I don't think they would make fun of me like that...
Anyway, back to my pondering. I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do, what I want to be, and where all I want all this to happen. Actually, that's not true, I know what I want...wait, not I don't, but it isn't very much about what I want....
It's internship application time. I found out today about an internship in New York, a "quaint historic town" about twenty miles north of New York City. It sounds just like anything that I've ever wanted to do.
I think that next time it rains, I'm going to spend a little time looking for the pot at the end of the rainbow so that I can do all the things that I think would be amazingly awesome, because as of right now I don't have the money to do it all. That or I need to get into the money making business. Well, by that I mean the actually physical making of money, I already have a job. Which, by the way, I love and is a huge reason why I wish I could continue to prolong my moving on with life.
Or I could move to Jamaica, surely I could find somewhere there to do an internship.
Or I could stay here in Provo. Bonuses being things such as, being closer to people that I actually know, and my family, and have a car. ...so my Brazilian friends just invited me to join the Brazilian facebook....I like them. Back to the internship thing...And I would...well maybe if I went somewhere else I would get offered a job and I would live in Timbuktu for the rest of my life and fall of the western United States planet.
So I don't know, we'll see. Maybe it would be good for me to go far away...
This entry might not have made any sort of sense whatsoever, mostly because it doesn't include all of the thoughts inbetween the words... :) I can translate if you want
